Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Suhana, you know what's going on.
You know when you used to be someone who doesn't give a damn even about the little things in your life? It's like you do and say whatever you like with anyone and everybody? You don't have any plans for your life back then. All you know is, just enjoy life the way it is.
Yeah. That was how I lead my life. I never cared so much about anything or anyone. Only now I do. Why? I am trying to be how I was to be last time but I can't because that would hurt people's feeling. Talking about people's feeling.. Since when do I ever care?
Urg! Then when you start to care about something or someone, you tend to get too attach to it? When you get too attach to it, every little things you would like to take note and when you want to know something, the answer is not what you want to hear.
You know what. I guess if I was meant to have a [insert word], then it was meant to be. If not, then just move on with life till I found one.
I'm not talking about boyfriends, mind you.
Suhana. I can't believe I'm doing this. For the first time, in my 16 years of life, I actually googled on How To Be A [insert word] With Someone. I was hurt to know that. You know what it is, right? Why must I be feeling that way? I think I'm out of my mind.
I just don't stand a chance to be [insert word] with anyone. Or is this the fate I get for rejecting those people who expected me to be their [insert word]?
You see how weird life is. When you don't care about people, you rejected the ones who actually cared about you. Then when you changed to someone who care about people, the people you care happens to be someone who doesn't care about people, and you are the one being rejected back.
I seriously believe in this: What goes around, comes around.
I suck.
Since I've googled it, here are the things I need in me:
Be loyal.
Look out for the person.
Listen.
Be trustworthy.
Stick up for them.
Spend time together.
Be yourself.
Care for your [insert word]
Avoid expectations.
Share laughs.
Be real.
I can do all of that except one. Can you guess what it is? Let me tell you. The only one that I can't do and will never have in me is Avoid expectations. I always expect something. Something that will satisfy me but I will end up hurting myself and getting frustrated because I never get what I expected.
Do YOU avoid expectations? I bet no. I'm sure everyone here does expect something in their life, right? So how do I actually help myself on this?
I have something else in mind. What if I do all these, then I end up getting nothing? Won't my effort all go to waste? So tell me. Should I even give a damn? I just feel that I don't stand a chance you see.
You know when you used to be someone who doesn't give a damn even about the little things in your life? It's like you do and say whatever you like with anyone and everybody? You don't have any plans for your life back then. All you know is, just enjoy life the way it is.
Yeah. That was how I lead my life. I never cared so much about anything or anyone. Only now I do. Why? I am trying to be how I was to be last time but I can't because that would hurt people's feeling. Talking about people's feeling.. Since when do I ever care?
Urg! Then when you start to care about something or someone, you tend to get too attach to it? When you get too attach to it, every little things you would like to take note and when you want to know something, the answer is not what you want to hear.
You know what. I guess if I was meant to have a [insert word], then it was meant to be. If not, then just move on with life till I found one.
I'm not talking about boyfriends, mind you.
Suhana. I can't believe I'm doing this. For the first time, in my 16 years of life, I actually googled on How To Be A [insert word] With Someone. I was hurt to know that. You know what it is, right? Why must I be feeling that way? I think I'm out of my mind.
I just don't stand a chance to be [insert word] with anyone. Or is this the fate I get for rejecting those people who expected me to be their [insert word]?
You see how weird life is. When you don't care about people, you rejected the ones who actually cared about you. Then when you changed to someone who care about people, the people you care happens to be someone who doesn't care about people, and you are the one being rejected back.
I seriously believe in this: What goes around, comes around.
I suck.
Since I've googled it, here are the things I need in me:
Be loyal.
Look out for the person.
Listen.
Be trustworthy.
Stick up for them.
Spend time together.
Be yourself.
Care for your [insert word]
Avoid expectations.
Share laughs.
Be real.
I can do all of that except one. Can you guess what it is? Let me tell you. The only one that I can't do and will never have in me is Avoid expectations. I always expect something. Something that will satisfy me but I will end up hurting myself and getting frustrated because I never get what I expected.
Do YOU avoid expectations? I bet no. I'm sure everyone here does expect something in their life, right? So how do I actually help myself on this?
I have something else in mind. What if I do all these, then I end up getting nothing? Won't my effort all go to waste? So tell me. Should I even give a damn? I just feel that I don't stand a chance you see.
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